Haha but seriously, I am very excited. Its an odd sensation; I think my mind is refusing to accept that this is reality until it is forced to. I've been talking about this trip and explaining what I'll be doing to people for the past three days straight, but its like I'm not really talking about myself. I don't think it will really hit me until I walk out of the airport in La Paz and realize where I am. I'm not nervous right now, but I do have some fears. I feel like this trip is coming at an appropriate time in my life. A lot of things seem to be changing in my life right now, and I'm not sure exactly what to expect. Its like the typical college freshman sentiment, just two years late. I'm excited about it though. I've been wanting a challenge to be put in front of me for a long time. The concept of putting myself in a completely unknown situation and seeing what happens is both terrifying and exciting. I'm interested to see who I am at the end of this trip. Mostly I'm scared of being lonely. I know three other girls on the trip pretty well, we've been in class together since the first semester of college. Still, most of my closest friends have always been in different places. Its always been easy to contact them whenever I wanted or needed to, I'd just pick up the phone and send a text or make a call. It won't be quite so easy this summer. Bolivia scares me more than Ecuador, because such a limited number of us are going. And its all girls. I've always been so much better at being friends with guys. Also, I don't think any Bolivians will be in class with us, so I'm worried about not meeting any new people. I'm not sure how we'll get an opportunity to do that if we're always with each other. It'll definitely be a challenge! I'll keep y'all posted on how that plays out.
Being at home, I'm focusing on the things I'm going to be missing this summer: my family, friends, working at the gym and at MGS. Its disappointing to be missing out on so much, but I'm trying to remember I have a lot of exciting, new things ahead of me. I have to WORST sensation that I'm forgetting something haha. I really hope I'm not. I'm about to rearrange one of my suitcases a little bit and try to fit in a few more comfy clothes. I don't dress myself. I'm having a really hard time leaving all my t-shirts and sweatpants behind. Its stressing me out. I NEED THEM. hahaha I'm such a bad grown up. Oh, by the way, just got my grades for the semester: all As!!! whoop! totally shocked me.
Alright, I'm going to go obsess over my lists and suitcases some more. I think I'm going to post again from one of the airports tomorrow. Night!
Alright, I'm going to go obsess over my lists and suitcases some more. I think I'm going to post again from one of the airports tomorrow. Night!
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