Thoughts.

So much to write...I don't know where to start ha. There are constantly so many thoughts swirling around in my head. Even more than usual. Which I guess is good, since I'm supposed to be developing a research question from things I observe.  I need to get a notebook soon. I have a couple, but they're more like journals.  I don't really want my field notes mixed in there ha.


I feel a little more acclimated after today.  We went to another neighborhood that's the touristy and bohemian area of town. We ate lunch there, then walked around the markets, and walked back to the house from there.  The walk was helpful, because I got a kind of mental map of the area. The little market was quite interesting though ha they were selling "witchcraft" stuff. such as llama fetuses and potions haha.  A few of the girls and I walked around our neighborhood after we got back and kinda saw where everything was.


I'm looking forward to starting class, because I always do better when I have a schedule and tasks, but I'm also really nervous. I've never done any researching like this before.  But the Centellai are good professors, and they've already taught us a lot just walking around with us. So I trust them. But I'm still nervous. Or maybe anxious would be a better term.  I not sure what's going to come out of this adventure. And, as I've said before, the unknown seriously stresses me out. Guess I'm gonna have to get over that.


I've already realized one thing about myself, and it has nothing to do with academics or anything really that I've been striving for my entire life. So I'm not really sure where that puts me ha but a realization is a realization.  I guess this is something I've realized in Oxford as well, but it really hit me here.  I wrote earlier about how I was scared about being lonely.  Well, its not really loneliness as much as feeling lost, because I don't have people immediately around me to love. I'm a lover. Haha that sounds weird but its true! At home, even though the people I'm closest to are in different places, its fairly easy to reach them whenever I want.  Here its not quite so easy, and that makes me feel lost. I guess its kind of like a reciprocal support system? wow, that seems really obvious now that I've written it out haha.


Anyway, tomorrow we're going to see the university in the morning.  Then tomorrow night there's a free cultural festival. Several museums are going to be open and there will be traditional music. Should be really interesting. More to come!